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Name: Becky
Gender: Female
Interests: Bringing people together
Expertise: Filling in awkward silences
Occupation: Social Work
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Member Since:
7/6/2006
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| Today I took Lucy to the grocery store and we arrived to the bread department. I was looking for english muffins and instead of wheeling Lucy in her grocery cart everywhere I went while I looked for them. I left her in one central spot so that I could quickly scan for the english muffins. While I was doing this Lucy repetitively called for me... Mommy, Mommy, Mommy... she was getting more upset with me as I didn't respond, and I was getting more and more upset with her as she continued to break my concentration. (The english muffins were hidden well.) I finally found them and started back to Lucy. She was just a few steps away but their was a man between us. By this time Lucy was scowling at me as I approached her. When I put the bread in the cart, I smiled at Lucy and said, "see I found them." Paying no attention to what I was saying, Lucy continued to scowl and loudly said while pointing at the man who had been between us. "That man. Get me." "That man. Get me." I suddenly realized that I had been ignoring Lucy thinking that she was just being a demanding toddler, but in fact, she had been scared because she didn't feel secure being that far away from me, her mommy. Although it was funny and cute, it also made me sad to think that I had ignored her because she was a toddler and I hadn't taken her feelings seriously because of this.
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| I can't sleep tonight. I ate too much junk food and drank too much caffeine before bed. I've been lying in bed thinking. (tossing and turning, tossing and turning - that's for you Lor - Finger 11)
Thinking about today's events. We had testimonial time at church and I didn't get up to speak. I couldn't... tears had filled my eyes and I'm too shy and self-concious to start public speaking in that sort of emotional state.
If I did speak though... I would have spoke towards the end of the time. I would have said that our Wednesday nights annual meeting left me thoroughly discouraged. Discouraged to the point of asking myself - "What's the point?" The weekend arrived and I had it brimming full with volunteer engagements within the church.
I was discouraged. I knew that Saturday when I showed up to prepare decorations for VBS - hardly anyone would show up, and we wouldn't make very much progress. I was right. A few people, maybe 3-4 others showed up at various points in the day. I am grateful for their help. I kept a happy face on and told them how great it was they came, and how much we were getting done, but inside I was discouraged at the lack of support of others, the many others in the church. Turning a whole church into a spy command center that flies into outer space so that we can teach kids about Christ in this unique atmosphere is a daunting task, and we didn't get that much done.Sunday morning was coming and as I prepared muffins, and letters for advertising our missionary of the month, so that as a church we could join in praying and uplifting them, I lacked enthusiasm. I did it out of duty. Do I love the idea behind it? Yes. DO I believe in it? Yes. DO I think it's beneficial in furthering God's Kingdom? Absolutely! Then why did I lack enthusiasm? Because I wondered what's the point?Why am I trying so hard to get people in our church to pray for our missionary's when we're not even committed to praying for our church? Forgive me Lord, for my doubt. I did it anyway, and I put on a happy face, despite my inner feelings.
Sunday's service came and I was overcome with joyful emotion for what I heard through the testimonies by all who shared. God is working in our congregation. He is working in the individual hearts of KBC people. The testimonies I heard encouraged me so much after Wednesday nights display of disunity.I saw that despite our human weaknesses inability to unify, God is still more powerful than that. He has continued to work through us. I heard that people felt loved when they came to King Bible Church, that people's broken spirits had been healed in our church. I heard that people in our congregation are growing and seeking God out in their lives, and that others were reaching out. Praise God!
Imagine how much more God could work in us and through us as a congregation if we were working together as unified believers.
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| I was scrapbooking with my friend Shari one night. It was pretty late -elevenish, and I was looking through a magazine. I came across this quote and I could not stop laughing.
when I give a gift I made myself
first I feel proud, excited and thoughtful
then I feel embarrassed and silly
and then I feel like I've given the best present I could give...
a part of me...
and then I feel embarrassed again.
I couldn't stop laughing because 1. I was tired and giddy, and 2. I could relate.
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| Lucy got her first haircut last week. We took her last week because her hair was very uneven in the back and her bangs were in her eyes. She sat in the chair so well and looked so little and cute in her hair apron. At the end when I went to pay, the hairdresser said her first haircut is free. Yeah!
 
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